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Nov. 22nd, 2015 10:54 pm I have now been awake for over 24hours. This is due to a migraine that will not leave, and which is refusing to be controlled with painkillers. I am exhausted. I have missed 2 shifts at work, which is killing me. I actually feel guilty for being ill, and- as I always do when I miss work- I am terrified of losing the only job I've ever had that I have actually, genuinely cared about.
In short, I am in a mess. I am exhausrted, in pain, and depressed to a level that I have not felt for years. And all I cam think is that I really, really want is a hug. It has been literally years since I felt any kind of real physical closeness (not even talking about sex, either- just companionable physical contact) and that is a very sad thing indeed. My life is supposed to be improving, but right now, it really feels as if it's falling apart completely.
In short, I am in a mess. I am exhausrted, in pain, and depressed to a level that I have not felt for years. And all I cam think is that I really, really want is a hug. It has been literally years since I felt any kind of real physical closeness (not even talking about sex, either- just companionable physical contact) and that is a very sad thing indeed. My life is supposed to be improving, but right now, it really feels as if it's falling apart completely.
